The Real me. Pt.2

You will remember where my Bf had learned to finger me to orgasm. He bought a book called ‘The Joy Of Sex’ a ‘how to’ manual with advice and pictures on pretty much all aspects of sex. My Gosh, it even said that people sometimes consent to anal sex, I was shocked!
Obviously it was to try to educate me and get me to loosen up a bit. Over a while I touched his cock if he took it out and rubbed him a bit (not to orgasm) and he was taking my panties right off and fingering me to orgasm with ease.
We were reading about oral sex and both turned on, he asked me if I wanted to try it. I surprised myself by just saying ‘yes’, just like that. He took my hand and led me to his empty bedroom, locking the door behind us. My heartbeat was going crazy as he lay me on the bed and begun by laying next to me. We kissed for some minutes as he squeezed my tits and ran his hand over my belly and legs. Every now and then sliding a finger along my pussy lips and bit at a nipple through the thin top. His hand went up my skirt and he soon had my panties off and was gently rubbing me. He looked at me, not sure what to do and asked me if I was ready. There was no way I was going to open my legs for him...That's true! Ha ha I was really that shy.
I kept my knees firmly together but bent them up almost to my chest, he rolled me gently onto my side and lay on the bed with his head near my protruding pussy lips, his nose almost in my ass hole and more or less facing me. I think he wanted me to play with his cock but I was freaking out so much that I lay stunned as I felt his hot breath on my nearly hairless pussy. I wanted it...but didn't know what ‘it’ was that I wanted.
He took a small lick of my lips to taste a pussy for the first time, (Im sure he’d licked his fingers at some time) He liked it and took another, longer lick and ended up with his nose right on my bum hole, his hot breath made me jump but before I could change my mind he had another long slow lick which won me over. I was so tense my pussy didn't open up like it usually does when stimulated, but he just kept licking those lips slowly for 15 minutes or so. I was acutely aware of his nose pushing again and again at my bum hole but he had no choice as I held my legs together firm. Eventually the juice seeped out and he slipped his tongue into my tight hole to follow it. Now he was just sliding his tongue from clit to my hole where he paused to tongue me as deeply as he could. My eyes rolled back in my head and an incredible feeling of heat spread throughout my body, but I made no sound. Nothing...and no reaction to his wonderful licking at all, so after he’d been licking for twenty minutes or so he stopped, came up and asked me if I liked it. I mumbled ‘Its alright!’ none to convincingly. The poor boy thought that I didn't like it so he stopped, but it was driving me crazy. A few more minutes of that tongue fucking and I would have had to let him in, but I was so shy that I never told him. He lay next to me and kissed me tenderly, his mouth had the taste of fresh pussy and I had never tasted it before, I pulled back and he took the hint and began kissing my neck as his hand found my screaming pussy. In just the few seconds that had passed my lips had flowered as I relaxed and his two fingers slipped easily into me, I gasped loud and clamped my hand onto my pussy. He raised his hand momentarily and trapped my hand between his and my hot cunt. His fingers circled inside me and he used his hand to pull my hand forward so my finger joined his, dancing inside my hole.. My god! I was finger fucking myself with his fingers helping. We did this for a few minutes until I could bear it no longer and ripped my hand away, it did not slow him and he continued as before; pumping me with his hand. If this is what fucking was like I wanted it! Just before I came I said ‘I want it inside me!’ but it was too late and I came on his hand again.
A few weeks later and we were getting naked together, he would take my top off then his shirt. Then his shorts and my skirt, his underwear then mine. When we were both naked he would cuddle and hold me close, both of us enjoying the smells and feel of another body so very close. (I still remember those smells and it makes me hot) I would hold his cock as he masturbated me to orgasm then I would turn so he could cuddle close to me from behind, He sucked my ear lobes (still a great turn on for me) kissed my neck and played with my boobs while we rested. Because he would not get the chance to cum his cock remained hard and he would move so it lay between my ass cheeks and along my back. (His front against my back)
One day as we moved to get close after a fine finger fucking session his cock accidentally went between my ass cheeks, between my legs and rubbed along my wet pussy lips. Hmm...so nice. He arched his bottom back pulling the cock along my tender slit until he thought it was back far enough to slide along my ass as before, but as he gently slid closer his cock caught on the rim of my ass hole for a second, the pressure built and it popped forward straight into my hot dripping cunt. I let out a Ohh! And he was in me! Only a couple of inches but the feeling was so good neither of us was going to stop there. He waited a few seconds to see what my reaction would be and as I didn't object he moved it out a tiny bit and slid it further into my tight hole. I was in heaven and moaned quietly as he slowly began to fuck me. He never slammed into me but went slowly in and out only giving me half of his cock. I remember that it always felt so very hard in my hand but in my belly it felt hard and soft at the same time, there was not the slightest pain and I was thrilled to be fucking for the first time ever. The heat continued to build and soon I wanted him to go harder at my tender hole, I held the edge of the bed in front of me and pushed back against him taking his cock almost all the way in. I was beginning to loose control and thought that I would cum again soon when all at once he ripped his cock from me just as I felt a flood of hot come fill the small cavity between ass hole and pussy. His cock jerked, twitched and cum flowed down my leg onto the bed. I was disappointed as I was just beginning to really enjoy it, but I knew he would want me again and it would be better. I slipped my hand down pushing it between my legs without him knowing and felt his seed on my leg, quietly I raised the hand to my mouth and tasted his love juice, Mmm musty and slightly salty. I was a virgin no more and very happy with our first effort. My girl friends who had ‘done it’ said it was painful and dry and the boys never lasted long enough to enjoy it. I guess I was lucky because instead of rushing to that first fuck he had spent many months exploring and learning about my body enough to make me wet and ready for his intrusion.
Only once did I take his cock part way into my mouth for a few seconds but could not bear the thought that he pee’d from it and quickly spat it out. Ha ha the poor boy!
I feel guilty, maybe I should find him and suck him dry as a reward for all the effort he put in while I did nothing..